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Hi - 7/2/2008 6:19:27 AM
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FROG-FullyRelyOnGod
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I grew up attending church and went to Christian schools. When I was about 16 I walked away from God. Several awful things had happened in my life by then and I tried to end it all with a couple bottles of pills. I spent the next 10 years believing that surviving was the worst thing that ever happened to me.
About 3 years ago I found myself missing church, and missing the relationship I used to have with God, but after 10 years of calling myself an atheist I felt that there was no way I could return to the flock. I used to be able to quote the Bible, but I don't even know how to read the Bible anymore. I started listening to Christian radio stations and was only getting ministry through music.
I've recently started attending a great church, with an amazing Pastor, but I am ashamed to discuss some of the things from what I now called my "lost years" with him. I've never blogged, been on a forum, or even posted anything online before, but I hope the anonymity of a forum like this will help me to ask some of the questions I have.
I was recently listening to a Casting Crowns song and the 1st verse sums up what I feel in church:
Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small
Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong
So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them
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RE: Hi - 7/2/2008 9:30:56 AM
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ta_mosquito
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Welcome to the forums! I do hope you'll find answers and encouragement here!
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Tricia
"There's a fine line between being open-minded and empty-headed." ~Michael Coren
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RE: Hi - 7/2/2008 2:05:23 PM
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AshezLove
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I'm new too. I faced that same struggle, and I'm working on feeling comfortable in church and with myself too.
If you ever want to talk about losing your way and how hard the journey back to faith is, please feel free to talk to me.
:)
God is always with us even when we don't believe.
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