I have been praying about this for a while. I haven't even told my sisters. But basically I went for my yearly which includes test for STD's. (I know pre-marital sex wrong!!) Ever since my last experience with my ex last year i decided thats it no more. Nevertheless I went for my yearly and found out I have an STD. Fortunately not HIV/AIDS but a virus that there is no cure for. I was first upset because I get tested every year had no symptoms but come to find out that Dr. don't test for everything. Long story short I have been depressed for a while. I know its my fault and everything happens for a reason. I am praying not only for a physical healing but mental healing. I have been depressed since I found out in January. With me trying to do better with not having pre-marital sex now I have this to worry about. I have been depressed on how I can possibly be blessed with a husband, marriage and children after this. I just don't know what to do. How could any one love me like this. But I know the Lord does things to get you attention but just don't know how to cope. I am taking it day by day.
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Taking it day by day is the best you can do. Try not to beat yourself up over past mistakes--take it all to the Lord--each day is a new beginning. It has been my experience that when depressed for whatever reason that the focus is off--all on self. I hope you have someone you can talk to about this--it may help to share the burden you feel. Remember you ARE loved unconditionally--