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cczprayers -> My Marriage (4/6/2008 4:20:15 AM)
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Nothing much has changed in my situation. My husband and I have good days and bad days but he definitely is still being cruel and emotionally abusive. So many mixed messages and lies. I keep asking God to take this from me because it is too much to bare but at the same time I refuse to let go. I keep trying to control the situation through anger, crying, fighting etc. I do love my husband but I'm starting to question why. I know if he came to me today and wanted to come home I would not hesitate......but he doesn't and I think its because of another woman, the one I used to work with. I feel humiliated because everyone at work knows. I feel like I lost and I want to pray and be patient and trust that God is going to make everything better but sometimes I lose focus on that. I just want my life back, I want a normal healthy happy life for my family, for my sons. I'm worried about court, my finances, the life my husband will lead with another woman. I want the Lord to help me, I want to let go, I feel alone in all of this. Please pray my marriage is restored, that I stay away from revenge and anger and hurt and can put all my focus on God and my two young boys. Please pray for strength for me regardless of what my husband decides to do. Pray that I can accept whatever comes my way, pray that I trust more in God and have faith that all will be ok, that it is his plan for me. Thank you.
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