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RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (6/20/2005 8:36:33 PM)

ps??? Who gave me stars for the above post?!?!?!? [sm=icon_smile_blush.gif][sm=icon_smile_bow.gif] lol goodness, lol just singing in my heart!

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (6/21/2005 7:46:32 PM)

another song that is an excellent prayer for my heart!!!!! To get out of my comfort zone, not judge by outwards appearance and love others!!!
If we are the body.....by Casting Crowns!

It's crowded in worship today
As she slips in
trying to fade into the faces
the girls' teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
farther than they know

CHORUS
But if we are the body
why arent His arms reaching
why arent His hands healing
why arent His words teaching
and if we are the body
why arent His feet going
why is His love not showing them there is a way
there is a way

A traveler is far away from home
he sheds his coat
and quietly sinks into the back row
the weight of their judgemental glances tell him that his chances
are better out on the road

CHORUS
But if we are the body
why arent His arms reaching
why arent His hands healing
why arent His words teaching
and if we are the body
why arent His feet going
why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus paid much too high a price
for us to pick and choose who should come
and we are the body of Christ

Chorus (2x)
But if we are the body
why arent His arms reaching
why arent His hands healing
why arent His words teaching
and if we are the body
why arent His feet going
why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus is the way



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (6/24/2005 12:12:25 PM)

ok....here is another song, a newcomer by John Reuben. His CD just came out, but i've been hearing the song on the radio for a while. Makes ya stop and think......

"So here we are in the same old spot knowing something needs to happen but
our mouths are locked tongue tied closed tight sealed shut yup I tried hard
but it just wouldn?t come up it's on the tip of my tongue it's on the front
of my mind yet the words were still so hard to find finally the reality of
things that come and push me to the edge I jumped off the cliff into the
abyss as I said

Chorus
I?m not trying to be a nuisance I just think we can do better than this that
was simply my two cents you can you can take it or leave it

the conversation lingered on and on and before i knew it night had turned to
dawn and we'll be searching for the truth in all of this ha or are we
debating just to win the argument cause none of us wanna here about where we
go wrong this song could easily be from me to you or me to john cause I have
the potential to be he guiltiest ha my greatest strength is also my
strongest weakness

chorus
chorus

let's think about this path that we're taking let's think about this future
we're creating let's think about this life that is fading think about it
come on think about now lets think about this time we're spending investing
on monetary things that are ending let's think about it then let's think
together let's think about what we can do to make it better

chorus
chorus
chorus
chorus (we can and we will)

we can and we will do better than this(repeated)"

its a rap and pop song mixed. Pretty spiffy!

http://johnreuben.com/index.htm

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (6/24/2005 12:14:43 PM)

let's think about this path that we're taking let's think about this future
we're creating let's think about this life that is fading think about it
come on think about now lets think about this time we're spending investing
on monetary things that are ending let's think about it then let's think
together let's think about what we can do to make it better

From the above song.....i go through bouts of depression regarding my job situation, and just how i feel about life right now.

It is hard not to let this whole life consume you. But, this too will end one day! Just another reality check!

Ohh, did u know that in personally for you i have a little posting which if anyone wanted to, u could write a hello or some thought, or something.....[:)]

Rosie,.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (6/25/2005 11:25:21 PM)

Genesis, Joy Williams.

To anyone who hides behind a smile
To anyone who holds their pain inside
To anyone who thinks they're not good enough
To anyone who feels unworthy of love
To anyone who ever closed the door
Closed their eyes and locked themselves away

You don't have to hide
You don't have to hide anymore
You don't have to face this on your own
You don't have to hide anymore

So come out, come out, come out wherever you are
To anyone who's tryin' to cover up their scars
To anyone who's ever made a big mistake
We've all been there, so don't be ashamed
Come out, come out and join the rest of us
You've been alone for way too long

And if you feel like no one understands
Come to the One with scars on His hands
'Cause He knows where you are, where you've been
His scars will heal you if you let Him


arrrghhhh.............cried when i hear this song!



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/3/2005 11:31:02 PM)

well, hello dear people.....[:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)]


Lets just say i am like the happiest person here today!!!! lol

And i'll tell u why........

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lol lets see how that works........anywayz......i went to church today, and had a precious time during worship and the service.....ended up getting the sermon......man, something i needed to hear, it was a different twist on the Prodigal Son......but, quite nice to my ears......hope to share it w/some friends, as we all need to hear the Grace of God!!!
[:)]

Well, then i went to one of my little kids houses that i taught last year, had some pictures of her and her sister and wanted to drop them off by the house. Well......the family was there......and my precious little girl was there......she got soooo excited to see me......man, i loved this little girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think there were even some tears in her eyes.........argh........anywayz......she is the precious little mexican baby i've talked about before.....the brown eyes, and pink little cheeks......=0)

Well.......we were all talking, me her father and all of the kiddies, plus the mom kept looking, and stuff........and guess what?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?

They invited me to a picnic tomorrow!!!!!! Its the Fathers birthday, and the WHOLE family will be there!!!!!! And me, they invited me.........argh....i almost melted.....i was like, nope, dont have any plans.....lol and what time is it?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! AND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They asked me for my number.......lol Sooooooooooo..............................today has been like the most happiest day in sooo long!!!!!!! i prob. wont be the teacher back w/little Sandra next year........or this coming up year.......BUT I'm back in w/the family..................[:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)]


sooo, that was trully exciting!!!!!
I was like, thank u Lord.......[:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:D][:D][:D][:D][:)][:D][:)][:D][:D][:D][:D][:D][:D]

LOL they are like one of the most beautifullest families i have ever met!!!!
And i get to spend the afternoon w/them!!!!!

Well, thats about it for now!

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/4/2005 5:55:41 PM)

Happy 4th everybody........[:)][:)][:)]



Anywayz.....i just came back from my picnic.......wow.....had such an awesome time......the food was awesome, the people trully treated me like one of them.......i felt humbled and awed, as i thought about these people and how the world views them, and how they treat a stranger.....granted a teacher of one of their babies, but still.......and on top of that, the family asked me if i would help out and help the parent w/english reading and writing!!! Can u believe that?!?!?! Here they ask me!!!!! [:)][:)][:)][:)][:)] I definately felt honored and jumped at this opportunity. I sooo do love this family. The babies were soo much fun, and being able to hang out w/the other children, was a treat. Watched the ducks at the water, and man, i felt whole......like this is where i need to be......not just this, but doing stuff like this. I get so one focused, and have been of late.......particuarly hanging out w/the singles at church. And even though, they say my smile and laugh is appreciated......i've been feeling of late, that that area is not where i should be. I mean, i'm only one person and can have only soo many pots on the stove. Something has to give......and i'd rather it be the singles at church, then ministering and being w/people where i can learn and grow, and also help others.
They know i'm single.....lol soooo, maybe a Mexican family member that is single might show up.......[8|][:)][:)][:)] Dont worry, nothing is happening, and i'm not saying anything to anyone.......but......that is a possibility.......[:)]

I should skiddaddle.....need to look up some stuff.
I'll write more later.

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/5/2005 9:01:40 PM)

hey you all.....
i'm just writing to say, things def. look a lot better this week, then they have been in a while, and the only difference is that i'm not looking at me again. For the first thing, i've been working out reg. for about 3 weeks, this is my 4th week. And for the second, i've struck up a friendship w/a friend.......and its like, a for real friendship. We've talked a lot over the past couple of weeks, and its soo refreshing. This friend is a godly friend, so that has been refreshing as well.......bringing back our focal point to the Lord. The thing is, is that this friend is hoping to join the Army soon. And its gutwrenching to know they will be going to bootcamp, and then shipped out of here.

Life has its little ups and downs! Wow.....lol

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/6/2005 2:27:06 PM)

Ok.....today was and has been an interesting day! I went to the university down here, and was talking to a man who is in charge of all of the Masters level classes/courses......we got to talking, and he said there was this course that they offer in Reading.....so, it would be a Masters in Reading. Florida is really big on reading now adays, and they are having reading coaches, and all of this stuff. well, it turns out this man, was soo excited about this program, and actually was like, here is all of the information, this is what u've done in it so far, etc.....soooooo, i'll be praying about it, but it looks like this is something my heart is like, yeeeeehaw!!!!!! The experience would be awesome, and i could use this knowledge in all sorts of different things, and places!!!!! Soooooo...............that is all for now.

I've been here in forums for a bit today, and just want to get off, so, i'll elaborate on my story later!

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/7/2005 9:59:39 PM)

hey you all......

I am sooo excited about the poss. of starting that Masters program!!!! Been thinking about it ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL day.....lol it is pretty cool!!!!
Also, just been growing and learning about different things......i'll post more later, but need to skiddaddle......[:)]

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/10/2005 3:30:42 PM)

In responce to Miss Pammy asking me how i'm doing, over in my personally for you reply page, where no one is replying.........lol


Dear Miss Pammy.....lol

I am great.......finally losing the inches.....not so much the weight....but, clothes are tons loser, which is an awesome milestone in my life!!!!

I went to this volunteer training for a placed called Britt House.....its a moderate risk lockdown program for young boys that have committed crimes, and they recieved a grant to start a faithbased program, so, they invited my church to come in and volunteer......i am soooo excited about this.......they want guys, to do the discipling, and mentoring, which i SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO agree w/......but, the girls can come in to help tutor and help out w/the worship service.........soooooo, since my background is education, and social work, i thought this would fit like a glove.......and, i think it does!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The two people who came to talk, are sooooooooooooooooooooooo passionate about this subject, that it totally rubbed off on me.........and i've noticed, well, when i was in Peru......that some things i've been through and some of my insecurities helped me to understand the street kids.......and they seemed to take to me, cuz my life certainly doesnt look like i have it all together.......and so w/my struggle w/the weight, which is like my biggest struggle, and now that i'm trying to hit it head on, i'm thinking that might be of some encouragement to these young men, in a weird sort of way!!!! lol just something i've been thinking of.........

also, i dont know if u heard about me starting the masters program.....well, its something i am soooooooooooooooooooo leaning into.......that it seems amazing that i didnt think of it sooner.......lol

Soooooooooooooooooooooooo.......lol i have my bouts of what is going on........but, its like my whole way of looking at these bouts have changed, and i just go w/it........instead of medicating it w/junk, i'm like, its ok to feel this way......tears are good, and then, this is what the Lord, the Creator of the universe thinks of me.......He loves me everlastingly, and w/a perfect love.......and then the whole thing, as u've been given freely give..........i sooo love loving people........=0) and the Lord seems to be putting some more opportunities in front of me.......i mean, i'll def. miss my babies......lol but, all of this will help me better to love them, later on........

soooo, that is pretty cool........

Thats about it for now!

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/11/2005 11:10:06 PM)

howdy......


we had a little brush w/Hurrican Dennis.....alot of wind, rain, and some tornados......the surf kicked up something fierce.....and it was invigorating to see, and see the hand of God in that it wasnt as fierce a storm as they had predicted. Poor panhandle peoples......keeping them in my prayers.

And now in the Atlantic are some more depressions.......yeah!! [8|][8|] I dont know.....its only July, and our peak season is in late August, September!

Trusting and relying on the Lord.

Also, still out of a job......also, my Army friend is going through some issues, so, prayers would be greatly appreciated.

This is the month that my sister died.....i like havent been conscientousely thinking about that, but......i've been a little more sadder then usual.

Well, guess i should skiddaddle.

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/14/2005 12:59:24 AM)

just saying a quick howdy!!!

Had a good day today......got some stuff done, and then had a refreshing time at church.....and the fellowship after was pretty good!!!

The Lord sooo did bless.

I'll write more later.

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/18/2005 7:00:45 PM)

Well, hello......just wanted to write down some thoughts.

Well, my army friend has just decided that he would rather go into the Marine Corp. Arghhh......3 months of bootcamp is headed his way. And it will change our friendship, so that will be interesting. He has been an awesome friend....the Lord has definately placed us both in each others lives for a reason. We talk about God all of the time, and i looooooooooooooooove having those conversations, and he accepts my quirky self, like no one has ever done in a looooooooong time. He trusts me, and we've shared a lot......and i am learning to open up and allow him to see the whole of me, which is an awesome feeling. To know that he wont bail is a comforting thing. And causes me to act more rational then i would if i thought the person would bail/become weary and skiddaddle. One of my greatest fears. He is also, like one of the most handsomest men i've ever met......[8|][8|] Which caused awkwardness at first, but i see him differently now. Sat. night and yesterday i was just soo down, depressed about life.....i went to church, and loved everything, but it just got worse when i left......i ended up at a lake crying, and he texts me on my cell phone, something about the goodness of the Lord, and i was like, wow.......i'm more of a person, whose been like, i can do this on my own, and now i have a friend who is pretty awesome! And its like wow.....lol Ended up going to the beach yesterday and really cleared my head. I've also been not going to the singles class at church. And, yesterday, got an e-mail from one of the girls at the class, saying something like one of the guys there......was like, its just not the same w/her not here. When i heard that i was like, wow.......i'm ever learning the effect i have on people, most of the time, i have no idea what i have done. The Lords been doing something in my heart to just lean on Him. I dream and yearn for those deep heart connections w/people, and when i dont its like, ughhh......what more do i have to do?!?!?! I dont know. I was telling my older sister that yesterday, when i was a basket case, i didnt self medicate w/any junk food......which is in times past the first place that i would turn to to help make me feel better. Instead i was able to ride out the storm, look unto Jesus, and now i am soooooo encouraged!!!!!!! [:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)]
And then TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I recieved a call from one of the places i turned my resume into!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its a group home for kids in foster care......for behaviour problemed children. I'm thinking that might do nicely w/going back to school. Its a challenge working w/these teens, but, i feel like i am up to it. And i'm ever wanting to make connections w/people, and see how i can help. So, that is pretty spiffy. They seemed pretty happy to get a hold of me, and i was like, yes i am interested.....lol so, we'll see where it goes.
soo, that is what is going on right now!!!!

Rosie.
ps....if u read this.....could u post something in my Rosie's Ramblings Personally for you folder?!?!?! That would be pretty cool to see who is reaidng this! Also, what are your thoughts?? Any questions?? Comments?? concerns?? lol Thanx.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/20/2005 2:47:04 PM)

awww......dearest peoples......lol

I have some spiffy news!!!!! [:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)]

First of, my days of unemployment are soooon to be over!!!!! I ended up having an interview this AM......and just fell in love w/the whole program, and the people, and heard the kids upstairs, and my heart rose.......wow.......so, i am waiting for orientation, to start working at the group home for those kids in fostercare........it will be for the weekend shift......16 hours Sat. and Sun and then a Fri. 4 to midnight........my FIRST thought, was missing church, BUT........who knows how the Lord may lead, like w/Esther......i may be able to bring them to my church, just some things that entered my mind......so, i wait now for the call......my heart rejoices, and this is a new venture for me.....in the beginning of the summer, i read this book called Hungry Ghosts.....I HIGHLY recommend it.......it totally opened my eyes to these young people........and it was about a lockdown program for teens in Camden County New Jersey......and my heart broke......my mom was like, do u want to contact the director, (who wrote the book), and go and see if they need workers or something?!?!?! I was like, huh?!?!?! I'm not moving to New Jersey, to work in a field, i know nothing about........like that one country song, if u want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans......[8|][:)] sooo, throughout this summer, i had that book and teens, and issues and my heart ringing in my ears........and then that whole thing w/Britt House came along, to tutor these young people, and my heart leaped, and i was like, volunteering is coool, i'll learn lots of things, and who knows where this will take me......and then, these people called me back.......lol wowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowoowwowoowwowowowoowowow wooooooooooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooo lol

sooooo, here i am, filling out the paperwork to get into taking some Masters level classes, volunteering at Britt House, and working w/these teens!!!!!!

[:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)][:)]

lol

I am one happy gal.........AND, i was thinking, my whole heart is set on doing Foster Care, AND one of the hardest people to foster, and the ones who need it the most are these teens, SOOOOOOOOOOOOO, i'm just thinking ahead, maybe, i'll be learning useful things, so i can keep a foster child in my home, instead of having him go to a group home!!!!!
I would sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo love to do that.
This has been one crazy journey.......lol

Well, guess i should skiddaddle.....lol

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/20/2005 10:54:12 PM)

Well, tomorrow i have Orientation, they called me this evening, and was like, tomorrow is orientation, can you make it??? I was like, ohh, wow, yes!!!! The lady was in a meeting this morning w/the agency i used to work for about who the foster kids would be who would be moving into the new group homes. So, that is pretty sweet. And then next week, is when their will be a meeting for the new Lead Staff workers. Which will be cool. WOWOWOWOWOWOWOOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW
It is still sooo amazing.

Well, i guess i'll write more regarding orientation tomorrow.

Talk to u later.

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/21/2005 3:54:55 PM)

wow....still find it unbelievable the whole job thing.......very God!!!!! Which will be good to remember when the rubber meets the road and i'm like, why am i here?!?!?! lol

Went to orientation......excited and nervous, about the whole thing. But, i am happy, and feel at peace w/everything!

Met some of the other new workers, they seem to be really spiffy people.....well, they have to be, cuz we have the same passions......lol [8|][8D][:)] Soo, need to finish out the paperwork, get my fingersprinted for the background check, and then i'll be good to go!

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/26/2005 11:59:08 PM)

Hey you all.....
Still amazed about the job, and go and ramble on and on about it to anyone who will listen!!! lol Still dont know exactly what i'm going to be doing, so that makes it hard to ramble, but, i make educated guesses......lol [8D][:)] Anywayz......doing well here.....keeping busy, reading a couple of books which is good.
Also, my Marine friend has been grumpy about something these past couple of days.......he doesnt want to talk, but sent me some pics. of him in a friends if his uniform.......i'm like, ok......i'll give u space, w/out thinking that i've done something wrong, which i dont believe i have. I've learned a lot from him regarding friendships, and that has been a blessing. He's told me enough, that i'm a special person to him, and so, w/that in mind i dont need to second guess him all of a sudden bailing in the friendship, which i've done w/all of my other friends. The minute they needed a break, or just time alone, i'd get all worried that i'd done something wrong, and so then ended up acting stupid, and really hurting the friendship.
Guess i should skiddaddle home.
Talk to u alls later.

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/27/2005 5:36:32 PM)

my long saga w/friends......lol

Well, he texted me about 2:30 this morning......and was like, i'm sorry for my attitude. I've been worried, frustrated over things, and the heat here is horrendous. We ended up talking for a couple of minutes. And then we talked this morning.......he's like, i want to make yesterday up to you.....i'm like, u dont have to. This is what i've learned from what happened. He is an awesome guy, a handsome dude, but, i know the Lords just placed him in my life for a major healing job. So, i've also been gaurding my heart w/him. Which has been a major lesson as well.

Anywayz......lol i recieved a call today from another place regarding my resume........argh!!! God has a sense of humor for sure! Its w/working at a migrant school w/5th graders......ugh, ugh, ugh.......prayer for sure, but i dont even know what to pray for......i feel God has given me this past job, but, i realllllllly love the babies, and esp. Mexican little ones just tug at my heart strings........[8|][8|][8|][8|][8|][8|][8|][8|][8|][8|][8|]
I felt kindof mad after i recieved the phone call, cuz just last week, i would of jumped at this opportunity!!!!!!!!!!!! but, maybe the Lord is like, u r a qualified worker Rosie....lol but, i have this work w/teens i want you to do! i mean, i'd give my eye teeth, to work in latin america, or w/latin americans.......it definately feels like i'm home when surrounded w/the culture. anywayz......lol kindof see the funnyness in the picture now.

I'll write more later.

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/28/2005 2:43:16 PM)

Hey you all......ok......after talking it over w/friends, and just being quiet, i've been thinking of some things. The sermon last night was incredible.....we are in the old testament Wed. night, and last night we got to Num. 33:50 - the whole of chapter 34. It was just an amazing story, of getting our earthly inheritance, particuarly John 10:10.....life more abundantly. We jumped all over the place, which was cool to "compare scripture w/scripture".......but, what i got out of it is what have i not totally removed from my life, that is stopping me from moving over. Israel was commanded to get rid of all of the inhabitants of the land.......and then in other verses, it shows that the different tribes removed some, but then stopped when the going got tough. One tribe stopped when they came across people who had iron chariots, and the pastor was like, what are your iron chariots in your life??? Also, in Num. 33: 50something, it says that if u dont remove the inhabitants, then they will be like ****s in your eyes and a thorn in your side. Totally effecting your sight, focus and your Christian walk. It was like, wow......working w/the children would be totally staying in my comfort zone. Maybe even allow for some retreat in where the Lord wants me. So, even though it will be challenging working w/the teens, i am pretty excited about it. Soo, yeah.....i am going to go into this job w/no regrets. Cuz, i've wasted too much time, looking back, and not diving into where the Lord has me!

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/29/2005 10:15:50 PM)

Well, hello........

The saga continues.....lol anywayz.......it turns out i got another job offer today w/Head Start, back w/working w/the babies........ughghghghghg.....lol got a little agitated in my head, until i again saw the Lord working and guiding me in this job w/the teens.

I've also got back involved w/my friends from the singles group......had a nice looooong talk w/one of the girls, a dear friend, we did a lot of miscomunicating over the past couple of months, but it was nice to get the dialogue going again.

and the marine friend......[8|][8|]

be back.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (7/29/2005 10:32:20 PM)

well...he's become an awesome friend, like ive stated earlier. And now he is talking about getting back w/his girlfriend......which is cool, and all, but then he's like, i want you two to talk.......and that i'm like, huh?!?!?!?!? She is a beautiful girl, and isnt a Christian......i'm like, i dont know how to talk to beautiful people......and my interests in life go a lot deeper then alot of the Christian girls that i've met......ughhh.......lol i'm like, ok.....but, that if it does happen, will be quite a stretcher for me. I usually leave beautiful people alone, give them a wide stretch of ground between me and them. I've lost out on a lot of wonderful people.....but, i've also been hurt by alot of people, so makes it easier for me, but then i'm just thinking.....this life isnt easy. I dont know.....lol

I'm also reading this book called the Introvert Advantage. WOWOWOWOWOW..........it hit me over the head, and reafirmed who i am as a person. It has changed the way, or has started to change the way i look at me.......i alwayz thought there was something wrong w/me....for one on one, things are awesome......but, more people and my tongue is tied......even when i have things to say, i tend to whisper to one person, and they think it is a good idea, and then they broadcast it to the world.....and i'm like great.....lol

I would highly recommend it to anyone who has an Introvert in their lives and also, to anyone who is one!

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (8/1/2005 8:50:10 PM)

awwww...............love em stars!!!!!! lol


Well, tomorrow my family and i are leaving around 4 AM to go up to Jax to get some medical tests done at Mayo Clinic. My parents have insurance for them, and so have been travelling up there, to get their stuff done, and my little sis is on their insurance, so shes gone a couple of times, and when my older sis was sick last year, she was able to go there, and they found the problem lickity split, and were able to really help her. Well, i havent had insurance for ummmm........quite a while......and then when i did have it, my jobs were soo crazy that i didnt go to the Drs. until i was like, realllllllllllly sick. Sooooooo...............mom and dad were like, after something happened a month ago, that they really wanted me to get all checked out. Soooo, that is coool, i guess. I hate drs. Whenever i've gone they've found something and i'm like, i dont want anything to be found......lol Not very rational, and my parents were like, ummm................too bad! So, i have a bag of books and my clothes and am ready to go.......lol It will be cool to bounce around Jax.....as that is close to where i went to college, and have some buds it will be neat to bump into, so that will be sweet.

Also, my crazy friend.......we've been talking more, and he's been like, after talking about his girlfriend, what r u thinking?!?!? I was like, i dont think u want to know what i'm thinking. And he was like, yes i do......but, i had just written him a letter sharing what i had learned Wed. night at Bible study, and i was like, well, why dont u wait until u recieve the letter, he was like, noooo, i want to hear what u are thinking......so, finally i got it out about the idea of marrying a nonbeliever. He told me his reasons as to why he wanted to do it, i was like, well.....i disagree, and this is why, and then was like, lets change the subject. Nothing was really getting done, i just wanted him to know where i was coming from. That was Friday night, Sat. we were talking and he was like, i've been thinking all day about what u had to say. And can really see where u r coming from, i was like, wow......well, then we talked some more, and stuff. Well, this morning reallllllllllllllly early, he was like, are u up?? I was getting my clothes together for the trip, and had started reading, Wild at Heart, when he was like, listen to what happened. He shared some things, and we again got on the subject about a Christian marriage, what that looks like, the picture of it being like Christ and the Church. For like over 2 hours we just talked on this subject. My mind was running.......i loooooove talking about the Lord. And certainly found my voice this morning.....lol I then shared w/him 2 Cor. 5:14 - the whole of chap. 6. We even talked about following Christ......how believers have their ups and downs......i shared w/him that even though the church or body of believers i have found are nowhere near perfect......my heart yearns to be w/them. Worship this Sunday AM was beautiful......my heart was broken by what i heard but, then rejoiced at the grace of the Lord. I dont know, it was just a sweet time of fellowship. It is just something to see the Lord working, i mean here he is really questioning things......appears (?) to be seeking and searching. Pretty spiffy, i guess.....lol

Well, i should skiddaddle. So, i wont be visiting here for the next couple of days!

I'll write more later.

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (8/5/2005 6:19:11 PM)

Well, i am back......totally tired!!! Wow.....what a week. I wont go into detail now, but suffice it to say, that in two days, they found things that i've been tested for before and no one else has found. It was test, after test after test........and Thurs. night, i was pretty freaked out as they told me they have a working diagnosis......but, have more test to do in a month, and other test results to come in. Ended up talking to the doctor this morning before we left, and he totally put my mind at ease. I know all of u know i've been battling weight for quite a while......but, if i have what they say i have, hasnt helped in the whole weight thing, and taking the medication for it will actually help me lose the weight, if i do the exercise and eat right.
God is good, they also found something in my brain, which they want to do further testing about.......so, it was a whirlwind trip, and still digesting what i've learned, but it is encouraging......the whole weight thing has been a burden, and i've alwayz been like, what more do i need to do?!?!?! And then the brain thing, has been giving me headaches and all, so, that will be cool to take care of that!!!!

I'm mentally, and physically drained. I'll write more later.

Rosie.



RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (8/6/2005 2:42:18 PM)

I've also, been getting some bad headaches, and told the Dr. that, and becuz of that, or something else, he sent me to have a MRI of the brain done. It turns out that i have a swollen, or inflamed optic nerve. We looked that up in a medical book, and that is a precursor for Multiple Sclurosis....(MS). I alwayz attributed the headaches, to lack of water, or low blood sugar, so, that is kindof interesting.

Just thought i'd add this as well.

I'll write more later.

Rosie.



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