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RosieCotton -> RE: Rosie's Ramblings!! (4/25/2005 9:11:57 PM)
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well, just everything was awesome......i have one dear friend that we have so clicked, me and this other girl named H......and, so Friday at around 4 she calls me up and is like, so.....how are things going?? I tell her i'm a little nervous and she is like, so am i.......i'm like, ok....great.....lol Then i get a little lost making it to the dock, but the dock is like 5 blocks away from H.s' house, sooooo, i call her up and meet her at her house and we arrive together. Then all of the guys were like, asking to me, what can i do to help you?? (my friend told me later, she was like, ok guys......what about me?? ) But, i took it kindof like, they dont think i can handle my stuff......i was greatful for the help, but was kindof like, ok....whatever......then we get to the island, and like everything clicked......Heather and i were able to talk alot Friday night.....and also, talk w/some of the guys as we set up the camp, getting the tents up and things......the devotionals hit me head on, talking again about the grace of the Lord and his love for us......and then we went around the camp fire.....and the question was laid out for us asking us why we came to this camp.......and it turned out that even those older, and looking pretty relaxed had issues w/being w/people.......so, i was like, ok.....i'm not the only one......which was soo encouraging......actually after one of the guys talked, H. looked at me like, did u hear that?? And i just burst out laughing, mainly out of relief.......Sat. was a roller coaster day in that, we got into teams and played against each other. And.....that was terrible cuz if i think i'm going to fail at something i usually dont try it, has been my motto, i guess......Sooo, here i am on an island of like 19 guys and 4 girls, and i have no physical, or endurance abilities and here we are competing against each other. I felt soo low, even though the guys acted like they didnt care, i dont know...... After one event, in which we lost, i got all teary eyed and was like, i'm sorry i'm on your team, to which they all were like, we are just having fun..... Anywayz.....at the end of the games it started raining and some of the events were water stuff, so i was all wet and miserable, and some people were leaving to go home....and i was like, maybe i should just pack up and skiddaddle.....when the other girl, J....(the leaders fiance) was like, Rosie how ya doing?? I kindof shrugged my shoulders....to which she came over and just started talking to me.......we then spent quite a lot just getting things out to the open and she shared a lot about herself.....some things i'd never guess. And then finally the rain stopped so i was going to leave and get into dry clothes, and then she was like, how can i pray for u.....and, lets pray right now......i was like, wow......everything got better.....and i was like, thinking, soooooo many times before, i just threw in the bag, and said, i am done.......yet this time, through the Lord i was able to persevere, and experienced sooo much from the Lord and through the others that were there.......we connected in ways that just going to church, ministry and hanging out would never of allowed us to.......and the focus of this group appears to be on Faith, Hope and Love.....worked out in us......i was also, able to release some pain i've been holding onto from some guys of last year, that i had totally ruined the friendship.....and now we arent friends, but......i am more at a peace about the whole thing......soooo much healing has occured, i am finding it soo amazing!!!! I still see them as like the awesomest guys i have ever met, and am soo thankful that i did meet them, cuz they helped to break that huge whole, or wall around me, concerning different people. Just found the Lord sooo faithful!!!
Blessed be his glorious name!
I'll write more later......i still havent gotten enough sleep from this weekend......lol But, am getting there!
Talk to u all later.
Rosie.
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