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Dakotasunbeam -> RE: I'm A Christian...But I'm Beginning To Doubt God.. (4/12/2008 7:08:28 PM)
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gayle, Don't give up on God! We all get to places like these in our life. The key is to remember, is that His mercy are new every morning. He doesn't have to give us our next breath, next morsel to eat, or anything. His goodness is what keeps us alive. When we get to these spots, this is the time when our faith has to go up a notch or either we fall apart. Reconcile yourself to going up higher, trusting Him no matter what. One thing that helps me in times of testing, trial or suffering, is remembering the apostles who loss everything for Christ. And it wasn't because of their poor choices in life, it was because of their choice to be obedient to Him. Paul said in Philippians 3:8, "Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that Imay gain Christ." I try to remember that God let's the sun shine on the just and the unjust. God is our friend and the savior of our soul. He does not promise to give us everything we want, and no trouble He said in this world you will have trouble, but be of good courage for I have overcome the world. This is our hope. I try to think of Stephen the Martyr, who, although doing GREAT things for God, God never delievered him from the hand of those who stoned him to death. If we think that God does everything in our lives we will get angry and doubt Him when things go wrong. We will assume He did it. God wills that no man should perish, but that everyone would repent and gain salvation--but as you know, some people will perish. That does not mean He wants them to. And also, I have learned that I should take the blame for stuff that goes wrong in my life--when it really is I who caused it. And if I haven't caused the trouble, I lay the blame where it should rest--the selfish or cruel individual who did it, sinful world, or satan--not God. We rely on God for mercy. But God's mercy is His to give. We cannot cajole it out of Him, we can only implore and we are assured that He hears us. Also, in times of hardship, I learn where my treasure is. The bible says, "Where your treasure is, thre your heart will be also.--Matt 6:21" During difficult times, God often shows me that I may have misplaced my treasure or He shows me in the loss of something great and my adherence to Him, that my treasure really is with Him. Either way, it puts me back on the right track with Him. Lay up your treasure in heaven where moth and rust do not corrupt. Do not give up hope Gayle. Stay with Him. Learn the lessons He wants you to learn. Take some money managment classes at a church (they offer them free). Put up ads for apartments or even a room for rent. Try craigslist. Learn the lesson He wants you to learn in this season, and determine in your heart not to leave Him. Remember, God is your friend. I thought about that during a couple of rough spots of testing in my life--would I get angry and blame a friend when something goes wrong in my life? Never! How does what went wrong in my life have anything to do with them? It's the same thing with God. He's our friend. Often times we treat Him like He's our personal butler or employee. "God, this went wrong! FIX IT!!!" we demand. But, God is our friend. And like a friend, we can only ask and hope for His generosity--not expect it as though it is our due. This was a very hard pill to swallow--because I've learned it's easier to blame God than myself or a sinful world I cannot control. Hold on! Keep fighting! God loves you!
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