Well I posted here while I was still married having problems and throughout my divorce. I had forums such as he doesnt love me anymore and ect.... well here I am again with another issue still pertaining to marriage. I am currently in divorce care and have gained a lot of wisdom from the program. I am now divorced. I didnt want the diovrce and cried for many mnay days on my bathroom floor, in the grocery store and anywhere and everywhere I was for a year. Finally God gave me strength courage and wisdom to overcome what happened to me I have no family here he provided more friends I couldnt afford the marital house and God gave me a rent house $200 cheaper and bigger. Yet with all I have been blessed with I am crying out to God yet feel very distant. Several months ago my ex whom cheated on me throughout the marriage and has een through 2 other women called and was talking about the past we both got caught up and well.... it happened I cried and cried and cried. Then I decided for it to never happen again well... it did. I feel like I cannot tell him no. My friends would rather see me sleep with a stranger than my ex if that explains anything. He is suppose to pay all expenses ( doesnt) and never gave me my gym equipment back. I have every reason to despise him and I do most of the time. Yet he pulls me back in whenever he wants and I CANNOT RESIST. I feel it is not Gods will but my lust which makes me sick and feel very very very weak. I have done a lot of things out of character I would have never done before the divorce. I dont like who I am yet I pray for forgivness yet I know this also requires change. My ex still goes to bars at least twice a week with his girlfriend. This was always a issue for us. For those of you who want to say try to get back together...Not a option he doesnt want it and his life style is not suitable for my babies at all. HELPPPPPPPP please and pray for me
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