My husband has a hardened heart. He’s done so many things to harm women and children and there is not a sign of remorse or even a knowledge of the damages he’s done and caused. I pray for God’s divine protection over my life and that he won’t let something happen to me and my sickness or death be what He uses to reshape my husbands heart. I have grandchildren and kids that still need me to lead them and I past 4 years I’ve missed a lot because I was constantly trying to heal from one thing to the next by my husband. I wasn’t emotionally available to my children at all bc I was stuck in survival mode. Forgiveness for myself for putting myself here against God’s will and neglecting my children. He didn’t care he already abandoned his children, all of them. I have a purpose other than this marriage. I have hope deferred I was deceived and manipulated into this relationship with him and I know God restores the lost years and lost opportunities. Prayers for holding onto his promises for my life. Protection!!!