Jesus Christ, I still remember the time you saved me in Kuala Lumpur. I remember me crying in my tiny Toyota Atos and asking for a miracle. People think I went crazy but I know it was You at the end, and I knew you told to careful.
I failed, Jesus.
During Pandemic I lost all my savings and went into a tons of debts, it’s getting harder and harder to carry the weight, and I’m alone here in this country. I don’t know if I deserve another chance, but I give my hope to you, I just need your presence, your mercy and once again, your help.
being alone is devastating, please search for a Christian church where ever you are and start attending it regularly.
Please read what Jesus said in John 10:**27 **My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. **28 **I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand. **29 My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all[c]; no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand. **30**I and the Father are one."
Two sentences saying you cannot be removed from Jesus’s hand or from God the Fathers hand, they are holding on to you, so in turn cling to them and seek them through bible readings, prayer, sermons at church or on line and with meeting other Christians.
One of the things that helps me is Jesus conversation with Peter when he asked how many times he was expected to forgive. Peter asked if it was 7 times and to Peter, 7 seemed like a generous number. But Jesus said no to the seven and said 70 times 7 we are to forgive someone who sins against us.
The reason I find that conversation encouraging is because if we are expected to forgive 70 times 7, how would Jesus do less? Even more, in fact. The Bible says that when we are faithless, He remains faithful because He can’t deny Himself.
Chances with Jesus are not something we deserve, but fall under His mercy and grace. You can’t get away from Him. If you’re His, then you’re His forever. I know you feel bad, but there’s no point in continuing to feel bad. Confess and receive His forgiveness. Boldly ask for what you need. Not want, but need and your Provider will answer according to your faith