Why does God feel so distant, im so alone but im surrounded by people, i just wannna be happy again man, im already hating christmasor any other holiday really i dont wanna see my family, all my friends make fun of me and nobody notices it, i just feel like staying home and letting myself wither and rot, Ive prayed so much yet get no answer, my crush of one year is with my friend, why does God not just come to me, i need biblical advice
Welcome to this forum brother @Imaloserhehe.
J.
Hey, I’m really sorry you’re feeling like this. That sounds like a lot to carry at once.
Feeling alone even when you’re around people is something a lot of us go through at some point, even if it doesn’t look like it from the outside. It doesn’t mean something is wrong with you.
When God feels distant, it doesn’t always mean He is. Sometimes it just feels that way, especially when things are already heavy. Even in the Bible, people said similar things. David wrote, “Why, Lord, do you stand far off?” (Psalm 10:1). So you’re not alone in feeling that.
You don’t have to figure everything out right now. Just getting through the day is enough sometimes.
Hello
I don’t know what you have experienced in your life, but sometimes we need to take a look at what goes on in our minds - our thoughts. If we have a lot of “truth” in our heads that is contradictory to the truth in the bible, we are bound to be struggling. We need to “know” in order to believe, to have faith 
Everything we need in our Christian life comes by faith, and faith comes from hearing/reading the scriptures, the bible.
Do you have anyone you can talk to and be honest with?
First Welcome @Imaloserhehe
God may be trying to tell you or show you something. A lot of times, He will remain quiet so you can discover something you need to know for yourself. If we were to be honest, a lot of the time when we pray, we already have a desired answer in our hearts and heads. When we do not get that answer, or we have to wait, we get discouraged.
“And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him.” 1 John 5:14-15
God is always there. He always hears us. He always answers us. Sometimes it is how and when we want, other times it is how and when He wants. Sometimes, it is no. But God always answers.
If you aren’t hearing an answer, re-evaluate your question. Remember, we are warned about this.
“You ask and do not receive, because you ask wrongly, to spend it on your passions.” James 4:3
This is exactly what you shouldn’t be doing. You’re focusing on negativity, the world, and the flesh. You don’t need to do that. You have a Heavenly Father who loves you and wants what’s best for you. Jesus tells us to forget about all the things in life that others worry about. God knows you need them. But instead,
“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33
Read His Word. Pray. Spend time with God. Allow Him to mold you into the way He wants you to be. Trust in Him with all things, and know that no matter what, God is in charge.
Peter