As I mentioned in an earlier post, I’m worried that im gay. I do not want to be a rainbow pride gay guy, no be gay at all. I tell myself I’m not gay but find myself thinking gay thoughts without realizing it. I get butterflies in my stomach every time I see a shirtless or attractive guy my age. I’ve done this for awhile and I’ve realized it’s a sin, so I’m sinning without realizing it.
I just moved into a dorm for my summer job, with a shared bathroom. The lust In me is making me want to see a naked guy. That is abhorrent. I just really need help or hope!
I spent most of my teenager years at home or around old people and women, so I don’t have much exposer to young men. For boys who grew up with boys girls seem new. I am vice versa.
Sometimes it weighs me down so much I can hardly move on. I need to know what to do next. I don’t want to tell friends or family.
The Bible teaches you, Josiah, that if you know the right thing to do but don’t do it, you are sinning, and if your heart doesn’t condemn you, you can have full confidence before God.
In our modern society gayness is now widely accepted, even in many churches, if not officially then among many of those who attend each week. Part of the reason for this is the way in which Bible references have been re-interpreted and taught.
We need Bible teachers who come to Scripture to discover what God says. But how many go to Scripture to make it fall in line with their bias? If we read a book by someone who is defending gayness we need to ask ourselves if they are using key Scripture texts in an unbiased and honest way. And of course, this also applies to those who reject gayness as an “abomination” before God.
There’s a lot at stake here. Changes to laws will never change what the Bible already says. Pastors who support gayness have to deal with what it teaches and explain away its frankness. But do they do this convincingly? We know there are those who will not handle the scriptures accurately, who will twist what it says. Do we believe that pastors and teachers who disagree with gayness are in fact failing to teach the word of truth correctly?
Josiah, you can be sure that a genuinely closer walk with Christ will inevitably reveal where your thoughts and behaviour are sinful. Maybe that’s what is already happening to you. Giving your life to Him daily will progressively clean up your life. If it’s really in God’s character to detest homosexuality, you can be delivered from it. None of what I’ve shared here will give you the strength to overcome if you allow your desires to shape your behaviour and thought life. If you have even the slightest doubt that homosexual desire is wrong, you will not be able change.
Are you fully convinced about what the Bible has to say about homosexual behaviour? Do you believe God can strengthen you against the powerful lure of any sexual sin? If we know the right thing to do, but refuse to do it, and if our hearts condemn us but we choose not to change, we will reap what we sow. In other contexts I know painfully well in my own private experiences how such things will play out eventually. It’s only a matter of time.
We must push hard against anything our pure and holy God says is wrong.