The past few months ( this time around) I have been taking care of my sick husband who is on hospice. He doesn’t even look like himself anymore. It’s been extremely stressful for my kids and me.
My issue is with my husband’s behavior right now. He tends to get really anxious and fidgets a lot when he’s like that. He’s also not in his right mind anymore and only slurs his words when we talk to him.
Tonight has been extremely stressful for my kids and me because my husband won’t stop trying to get out of bed. We normally have meds to keep him calm, but we can’t get them right now because of rules with the pharmacy about when they are allowed to fill his anxiety med.
We put small tables in a row next to his side of the bed so he can’t crawl off it and hurt himself. But he absolutely “will not” stop fidgeting. He also has a catheter in him because he kept trying to get up to pee and kept falling, so it’s for his safety that it’s there.
I am at the point right now where I had to go across the street from my house to take a much needed break tonight. I was going to lose my temper, so I knew getting a breather was the best course of action. My poor kids are keeping an eye on him for the moment.
My kids and I are completely overwhelmed by our situation and I am at my wits end, but I am still trying to keep my husband safe. Everything we do for him is for his safety and to keep our sanity.
I know God lets us go through trials to teach us things, but this is too much anymore. I have bipolar disorder too, so does my son.Because of the stress we are under, our mental health has been greatly affected . I honestly don’t know what to do. We applied for long term care today to pay to put him somewhere with 24/7 supervision, but that can take 30 to 40 days to get financial assistance in order to do that.
I don’t know what to say to God rn other than to pray for mercy for all of us, my husband included. I know he’s miserable for many reasons, which makes him fight us all the more when we try to help him. He has always been stubborn, but it’s actually ridiculous how bad he is now.
Any prayers are greatly appreciated. Plus, any helpful advice is too. I know God works things out according to His purposes and will and that somehow this situation will bring about something good, but my family is in the thick of it at this time, so I admit I have some doubts, which of course makes me feel guilty for not trusting God’s process and guidance in this situation. Thanks for any help you give. My kids and I greatly appreciate it.