I am a father . I am struggling to keep my head high . I brought in a baby girl to this world I am struggling to provide . I had a job but suddenly was laid off after returning from parental leave . It has been over a year of trying to find new employment . I have been looking high and low . I admit I have not turned to hof until now because I feel like I’m at a dead end . I try to stay positive but my spirit is breaking . I pursued my dream career in law enforcement and things didn’t work out . I have made friends with people in that process and I smile for them but my path is unclear . I accepted that my unemployment has ran out . I had a job I thought for sure not a dream job but as a delivery driver . I got news today i did not get the job . I am broken .
A friend told me to seek legal action on my former employer. I happened to choose the wrong law firm because they sued my company for a substantial amount then dropped the case . I was told that that law firm was a shady firm and it only complicated it and no other law firm wants to take over someone else’s case . I was never expecting that but I just can’t believe my luck as of late .
I can’t even get a part time job . I’m so eager to work I can’t even enjoy my daughters because I’m just constantly worrying about money. I feel like a loser , everyone tells me it’s ok but it’s really not . I’m a grown man that’s dying inside . I’m not happy and I just want a job so I can make money for my kids . I live in the Bay Area and can’t even grasp a 50k a year job and it’s just plain out sad .
I apologize coming to god only when I’m in a time of need . At this point I don’t know what else to do . I wish I could quit but it’s not an option . My true want for something better just breaks me down because I nothing I do is working . Please god if your out there know I’m trying and I really need help now I can’t do this much longer I’m breaking down
