I’m writing about why I feel so lonely and broken no matter what I do this life doesn’t feel like I accomplished anything and never will rather I put the work in I am going nowhere
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I think some of us are programmed to be more careworn than others. I do not mean that in a negative way. I know what it is like to want to throw in the towel. Can you be a bit more specific about what is bringing this on? Are you in school? is it a job problem? Relationship? Have you always felt isolated?
Hello Rachel and welcome to the forums; you’re in the right place. I feel that way daily except when I serve the Lord. Please try this: volunteer 1 day of service anywhere—church, homeless shelter, anywhere. Do it in His name and see the change!
I became a right arm amputee in 2021 and it feels like I can never get back up
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@Rachelpjohnson198777 When we look at ourselves or others, it is easy to focus on what is missing or what has changed physically. But God operates on a completely different level. He looks straight at who we are on the inside.
" For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart." 1 Samuel 16:7
To God, your worth, your identity, and your beauty are entirely intact. He sees a whole soul, fully known and deeply loved. It can be easy to feel like a physical change alters who we are at our core. But scripture reminds us that our fundamental identity was woven together by God Himself.
“I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” Psalm 139:14
This truth doesn’t change after an amputation. The “wonderfully made” part of a person is their life, their spirit, and their existence. All of which God still holds, values, and designs with purpose.
When physical hardship or trauma happens, a person might wonder if they did something wrong or if God has distanced Himself. Paul covers this beautifully in the New Testament, reminding us that absolutely nothing in the physical or spiritual world can create a gap between God and us.
“For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39
An amputation is a physical circumstance, but it has zero power to diminish or disrupt the absolute, total love God has for you. Jesus constantly showed that a person’s physical condition never limited their value in the Kingdom of God. In fact, he often highlighted that those societies viewed as “broken” or “incomplete” were the very ones who understood God’s heart the best.
In Luke 14:13-14, Jesus explicitly commands his followers to invite “the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind” to their feasts, showing that in God’s ideal community, those with physical differences are not just included—they are guests of honor.
In the eyes of the world, bodies are measured by what they can do or how they look. In the eyes of God, you are measured by who you are. You belong to Him, and He sees you as whole, chosen, and deeply loved exactly as you are right now.
May God be with you, lift you, comfort you, and help you see the truth. In Jesus name, Amen.
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Sister,
what you call a disabilty my Lord calls an opportunity. Without knowing more about your location or means you could: volunteer at a local childrens hospital amputee ward, they can teach you! volunteer at retirement homes, visit prisoners and share gods word, read to kids at the local ibrary, it never ends.
First admit it’s not your body that’s been hurt, it’s you.
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i am praying for you and can on some level feel your despair. given the chance, no one would choose your predicament, thats for sure. youre standing out in a way that most others do not, and it inhibits you on top of it all. its only been 5 years and time flies. though youve in many ways adapted, theres still so much thickness to sort through in your mind and physical progress. recovery isnt over, inside nor out. you have every reason to feel as you do. but the story isnt over. you might find yourself many times still in the future crying out to God about how this has been affecting you, but with your tiny seed of faith and hope that will not shatter, you will continue on despite all the pain. where will it lead to?
look into stories of people who went many many decades with this same problem and how they turned out in the end. can help you decide possibly what to do and not do in the meantime.
there is a book called The Radium Girls, which tells the story from years ago of women who were terminally or near-terminally affected by working in radium factories. one of the women, charlotte purcell i think was her name, had a unique outcome due to her quick thinking and bravery. only one of her hands or something was afflicted. the cancer was spreading through her hand. she had already seen the more-body-encompassing effects of radium on the other affected women, and she was determined to survive this. so she bravely requested for her entire arm to be amputated, even though the cancer wasnt even close to being that high up yet. she reasoned that maybe she can keep the cancer from getting anywhere else. to my amazement, it completely worked. she was a very young woman back then. decades later, when she was a grandmother, her little granddaughter asked her to jump rope. though charlotte had learned very well at this point to do many things with one arm, she automatically believed she couldnt do such a sport. but her granddaughter was sad that grandma wouldnt jump rope for her! so hardy charlotte got creative, she had one end of the jump rope held in the right place in the air by something, and used her existing hand for the other end, and made her granddaughter happy by managing to jump rope anyway.
its not a happy thing, but you can still have a happy life. that story made me think of you. i am praying for you and i hope you find some more huge strings of hope soon. your life still has meaning and youre going to amaze yourself, and maybe even others, when- not if- you get through this hardest bubble of it all and get to the work that you just never imagined youd one day have to do. it wont all be bad. its hard to get there though. we are all praying for you and hope to hear good news on this from you one day. youll be stronger than you feel right now.
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