I am recently homeless.start a great job at the end of the month.until then I am broke and nowhere to stay.
I am alone in the city.I am Christian with a deep faith but even that is on shaky ground.
I can so relate to the book of Job.I am not a young man anymore and have physical limitations as well.
I have considered the idea of ending the pain permanently.I am strong but there is only so much you can take.I am relying on God I just don’t see anything positive happening.I do pray constantly.
I know a few of the homeless and there’s no shame in not having a place to live. One guy told me about how scared he was when it first happened to him and that fear lasted until he figured out what to do - how to take care of himself in that situation. It wasn’t overnight. It was almost a year.
The thing about Job is that he never lost his trust in God. “Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. Even so, I will defend my own ways before Him.” 13:15 At times he whined, complained, listened to his wife telling him to go kill himself and listened to his friends tell him it was his own fault. But Job held his ground trusting in God although God gave him nothing to hold on to. In the end of the story, all and more was restored and Job came away with a better understanding of his God.
I haven’t seen, but heard of some who killed themselves. Others that died through a fentanyl overdose. None of them had the faith that you have. None of them had the Lord Jesus with them. You’re right that there is only so much we as people can take, but that’s where the Lord comes in. All who are weary, all who are burdened, come. You’re situation will change and right now your faith (don’t underestimate the extreme value of faith) is what you have to sustain you. Look to the One you believe in. Hold tight to honor Him and see what He will do. I’m praying with you.
from the internet:
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Been there, brother. I once screamed at the top of my lungs from beneath the bleachers of my former Akma Mater because of the depth of my hopeless sorrow, surrounded by snow mounds as the snow continued to fall. I screamed toward God and the heavens and the night stars that were absent because of the snow. And when I was done screaming, and crying, I found peace in the silence.
I was also homeless during the Quarantine in 2020. for three months, mid February until mid-June, living in my car while hanging on to the one job I had left when everything else was shutting down. And I can tell you, God never left my side. Sinner though I be, God remained with me. And if God was with me at my side, He is at yours too. You will find a way forward. Doors will open. Follow the nudge and pull of God, the rod and staff that never lead astray. And you will be okay.
God bless you and reveal Himself to you in your darkest hour, to lead you into morning and a new day.
Was the semicolon message for me? Are you saying I should have used a semicolon instead of a (-) dash? If so, that was useful information and I will try to remember.