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Please read and talk to me. Beg of you.

Do me the courtesy of reading the entire post because it’s pretty long. This is probably the saddest story ever and there’s a million titles I could give this post. I know I shedded a million tears and more.

First of all I blame no one. Not my mom and not our Father. I know I have free will and I make my own choices. That being said.

Background.

I went to Australia with a friend of mine and 8 months in we came back from a party. Because I was getting tired I gave up the steering wheel and when my friend took over he totalled the car which dislocated my vertebrae rendering me quadriplegic. I have bed sores, an internal pump for spasms, a stoma, etc.

When back in Belgium I went to a rehab facility and here’s where the story begins.

The way to belief.

I didn’t come to believe by reading the bible. I started with the occult and came to it that way.

Anyway back at home I researched how to praise God and it end up with inviting the holy spirit.

After that my mom asked if I wanted to smoke and so I did. And I didn’t realise until days the feeling was gone.

And I read somewhere in the bible about blaspheming and I became terrified for the wrong reasons. My mom didn’t want me to meddle with the bible anymore and made me talk to a psychologist. And I have a lot of caregivers so when they asked why I was afraid I probably said nothing… and stress and smoking

You’re getting the gist.

Anyway I have a short term memory and I did everything wrong. But God seems to make it so that I spit in his face but short term memory and dread and no christians in my life was all a recipe for disaster. Just a perfect storm.

And I’m just a normal dude and I’m a really nice guy and so terrified of the Lord.

And at first I was so happy but now I’m just depressed and my family things I’m nuts.

Can you please pray to the father in my name or can I please share my story to someone over WhatsApp please?

I just need a shoulder to cry on without being judged.

I’m from Belgium.

Please don’t ignore me. Place yourself in my shoes.

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@Jerome, I know who has a “shoulder to cry on.” It’s Jesus. Pick up a Bible with a good translation like the English Standard Version and read the gospels. I would start with the Gospel of Mark, the first one written, mainly about Jesus’ actions more than his teachings. Then, read Luke’s gospel about Jesus’ actions and teachings. Then, Matthew’s account would be next and finally John’s description of Jesus as God (who is his Father, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit as the one God) who made all humans and the universe.

I would continue reading the Book of Acts about the early church’s growth. Then, you can read the Old Testament’s first book, Genesis, and then the other four books written by Moses. Don’t get bogged down in the lists of names; just get the idea and move on.

At the same time, find a good church that preaches and teaches the Bible and Jesus’ death and coming back to permanent life to give you forgiveness and new life to follow him. If they have a small group who discuss the Bible as God’s book given for our lives, join them.

Meanwhile, keep praying to the Father in Jesus’ name by sharing with him your genuine feelings and seeking his peace to accept your past, while gaining God’s gift of hope for your future.

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