For Husband Joe. I hurt his feelings , and I’m need to forgive myself / alcohol changes people , for son Carlos. Get motivated stay strong , sober Linda menopause. Free and guilt free
First you need to decide are you dependant upon alcohol?
If it is the reason for your mistakes or you cannot live without a drink?
Then you need to seek help.
Once that is decided you need to apologise to your husband and to who ever else you have offended with both words and the real actions that you are going to change your behaviour.
If the menopause is causing mood swings or a need for alcohol seek medical help.
Talk to your friends at church, they will have or be going through these problems and can offer advice.