Help me grow in you Lord

Thank you Oh Lord for being my never failing provider of all . God I want to be close to you . I want to know all there is to know about you . I’m new on this Journey, it sometimes feel like I have pulled back . Maybe even been distracted . I want to learn your word and retain it . Help me to stay calm in all my learning. Sometimes fear hits me and my prayer is blocked . Help me since your praises and pray like I’m telling a story , not let my words be blocked . Bless me God give me favor . I know I have gifts that you won’t me to use . Build me up oh great one in you so I over flow on others . Let me be a beacon of light that shines on them to help them . them never forcing the word but being so gracious they need me to help get over s stumbling block . Lord thank you for hearing me . I love you and I can’t you enough.