Husband is unbeliever and is heavily oppressed by immense unhealed hurts, anger, bitterness, shame, and self loathing. He knows the Bible and thinks there is some kind of higher power but still rejects God and the word as truth. He is in so much pain mentally, physically and spiritually. The eldest of our daughters and her fiance believe in God and Jesus but are one foot in the Word and other in the world. Their lives are heavily immersed in this sinful world and unable to break free. Middle daughter as of last two years stated she now doesnt believe in God and is going down path of father in many ways. Watching her being pulled into world and the darkness that has latched on is heartbreaking. My own walk with God was oppressed for long time and it took a mighty downfall and breaking to right my path. As I cling to God, I am in so much need of prayer for strength to stand firm, to be still and soft and gentle and a light for my family. My youngest daughter recently asked Jesus into her heart and we read the Bible and pray together every night and pray for everyone on way to school in morning. She and I both need prayer to stand firm, to remain gentle and always proceed with Christ like love, to resist being reactive to words and the hurt of others or engage in arguments and defensiveness….to just be still. We know God is in the works and the battle belongs to Him. We are both weary as we stand for Christ Jesus, ever in prayer for those we love and all others, and feeling the weight of that battle for those we love pressing against us on all sides. We know we are not fighting against flesh and blood but dark principalities and know the enemy is trying to discourage and defeat. We know that God is for us and not against us. We need His peace that surpasses all understanding to consume us as we go through these trials and tribulations. Our family is hurting and we are so very tired.
What you’re carrying right now is heavy, and the love you have for your family is so evident in every word you shared. It’s incredibly hard to watch the people you love struggle, especially when it feels like darkness is pulling at them from all sides. But I want to honor the strength and faith you’re already walking in, even in your weariness, you’re choosing prayer, gentleness, and Christlike love. That is not small. That is the Holy Spirit at work in you.
You’re right: this battle is not against flesh and blood, and you don’t have to fight it in your own strength. God sees every tear, every prayer whispered in the car on the way to school, every moment you choose peace instead of reacting. None of that is wasted. Sometimes the breakthroughs God is working on take time, especially when the hurts run deep, but He is moving even when you can’t see it yet.
I’m praying right now for His peace to settle over your heart and your home. I’m also praying for renewed strength, for rest in your spirit, for wisdom and gentleness as you parent and love your husband, and for God’s protective covering over your youngest as she grows in her faith.
You are not alone. God is standing with you in this, and so are we. 
@LovedbyJesus my heart just aches for you. I’m sure every single one of us knows what you are going through. May I offer encouragement?
Keep praying. Your prayers are being heard. You may not feel it, or see significant changes, and you’re definitely seeing how the world eats our children up. My sons are in the world, clinging to lies and darkness. They come close to the light then back away, filled with doubt, regardless of the fact that God makes big, bold, obvious moves in my life..and they witness it. Yet they doubt. So I pray so very hard that God will reveal Himself to them. I also pray a lot of intercessionary prayer for them. And I praise Him for rescuing me, for saving and delivering me from the world. So please, keep praying and trust that He is working..because He is.
Keep following and obeying Him. Hang on to Him as tightly as you can. Stay in the word. Look up verses that will give you comfort, strength, peace and even joy in the midst of your pain. When you call on Him, He answers.
As much as we love our children, husbands, wives, family, friends, and even pets, Jesus said we are to love Him more. This is a hard one because, although we are not of this world, we live in this world, and are only human. So, we anguish over the ones we love because we don’t want heaven without them. Jesus doesn’t want heaven without us. And He intercedes for us. He advocates for us.
I’m going to offer advice that my friend gave me years ago: give your life to Jesus. Stay faithful to Him, and leave your loved ones to Him. It took me 4 years to let that go and give it to Christ, who will do far more than I pray for, or could even imagine. I still pray for them but I know Jesus will rescue them and save them. Only Jesus can.
Have hope, and faith, that God is working. My marriage is being redeemed through prayer and being led by the Spirit. My husband won’t attend church with me, doesn’t really want to have conversations about God, but he’s listening openly to my testimony, and I know he’s being nudged. God is working.
I’m covering you in prayer right now. Lean into Him and surrender to His will. You’ll find rest in surrender. You’ll find peace there too, and joy. I promise you’ll experience joy in all of your confusion and pain when you just give it to Him and surrender.
God bless you sister. You’re not alone in this.