I was told by Jehovah, Jesus, Holy Spirit quite a few times that I am NOT one of his sheep. I am not going to heaven. Which doesn’t bother me. I am fine and Ok with it. So. What I want to know from Holy Spirit filled Saints Is since I am not going to Heaven I am going to be shoved into a furnace of fire where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth. Why Did Jehovah Create me since I don’t want to burn, was told multiple times I am not going to heaven, I don’t even want to go to heaven. When I asked Jehovah why he created me HE TOLD ME: I am never going to know why he created me. I want to know why I was created since I am not going to heaven and don’t want to go to heaven.
OK. I will take a shot. Although I’m thinking you really do not want an answer. If you don’t want to go to heaven, why ask? If you have a lack of desire or indifference toward one’s eternal destiny usually results in apathy, not an active search for answers.
However, looking closely at your words may reveal why you are actually asking. Self-preservation vs. preference? You state that you do not want to go to heaven, but explicitly state you do not want to burn in a “furnace of fire.” Your concern is not missing out on heaven; it is fear of suffering, combined with a deep sense of existential rejection.
The central question isn’t “How do I get to heaven?” but “Why did God create me just to suffer?” This reflects a fundamental human need for purpose, meaning, and fairness. You claim Jehovah, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit told you directly multiple times that they are “not one of His sheep” and are excluded from salvation. Scripture emphasizes testing internal voices or promptings against revealed Scripture 1 John 4:1.
“Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, for many false prophets have gone out into the world.”
God’s revealed desire in Scripture is for salvation, not destruction: 2 Peter 3:9:
“The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.”
Ezekiel 33:11
“As surely as I live, declares the Sovereign Lord, I take no pleasure in the death of the wicked, but rather that they turn from their ways and live.”
Who are the “Sheep”? In John 10, Jesus defines His sheep not by an arbitrary decree spoken in private isolation, but by their response to His call. In John 10:27-28
“My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand.”
Anyone who seeks God, desires relief from destruction, or calls upon Him is invited: “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved” (Romans 10:13). The very fact that someone is concerned about their spiritual state indicates that their heart is not completely hardened.
You asked why God created you if your outcome is condemnation. Scripture teaches that no human being was created for hell. Every person is created with intrinsic dignity, purpose, and value (Genesis 1:27).
Hell was originally “prepared for the devil and his angels” (Matthew 25:41), not as a pre-planned destination for specific human individuals whom God decided to reject from birth. Paul notes in Acts 17:26–27 that God created human beings so that “they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us.”
It sounds like you are carrying a very heavy burden and feeling deeply rejected. But it is worth re-examining the voices you are hearing in light of what God has already spoken in Scripture. The Bible teaches that God takes no pleasure in anyone perishing, and Jesus explicitly states that anyone who comes to Him He will never drive away (John 6:37). Any voice telling you that God created you simply to destroy you, or that you are permanently barred from His grace while you are still breathing, directly contradicts the gospel of grace.
I hope this helps.
Peter
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Please could you show where in the bible God actually tells people he is not going to save them?
I know of places where the apostles do this and and know Jesus told off/rebuked religious leaders.
I strongly suspect that you are not listening to God.
as PeterC has said having a fear of hell and a dislike of heaven is not enough.
May I strongly suggest that you find and sign up for a ChristianityExplored course and investigate what Christianity is.
Since you mentions “Spirit filled”, I assume your background is with Charismatic Christians. If you have been getting messages from them you should be aware that often these “messages” are not accurate.
If you are getting messages directly, you should be aware that often auditory hallucinations can indicate mental illness.
There are some actions that you may want to consider. The first would be to get a more correct understanding of Christianity. Here is one place to start;