I need prayers please and for God to hear me and make me stronger. First of all I have schizoaffective disorder, feel like I have no support, love, or anything. Don’t know what my values are or if anyone values me, and why would they. My adult children haven’t communicated with me in over a year because of my mental health and at a time I was unstable, both my parents died of cancer in 2023, and I have no family only a sister who has her own problems have no friends, no money, no career, hobbies, and feel uncomfortable all the time too. My physical health is in very poor shape and I’m only 46. I’ve never been married and only have a significant other, which he’s becoming not real significant. I’m lost, more than depressed, feel worthless, and don’t know what to do. I’ve been involved with faith for less than a year, but have been saved since age 17 if that really even means anything… I want to feel valued, have values, and feel important in at least one person’s life other than just God. I’m lost and desperate. Any encouragement might help.
I hear your lament, and I sympathize with your plight. I am so sorry you feel like this. This kind of “miserable existence”, as you say, is very difficult to bear-up under. I hear you.
The best counsel I can offer will not ease your discomfort or improve your situation, but it is still the best that I have, and I hope you can still scrape a bit of marrow from this dry bone.
You shared that you have a clinical diagnosis, which tells me this is no acute ailment, but one you have been dealing with for some time. You obviously have undergone some therapy, but for some reason you are appealing here, on a Christian forum, for some encouragement. I believe strongly that this forum is not a means of redress with a very high potential for productivity; this forum is not likely to provide you with much long term clinical therapy, which you obviously need.
Since you describe yourself as having:
…my personal opinion is that you should therefore seek a trained clinical therapist who is also a Christian. A trained therapist can help you deal with the many traumas in your life by helping you isolate those issues that you can do something about, and lead you into accepting those that you cannot. In my opinion you need a helping hand who is close, compassionate, and dedicated to seeing you through this night of anguish.
I will add that I can testify to God’s faithfulness, compassion, and incomprehensible grace. Ican testify to His strong desire to show Himself strong in the lives of those who put their full trust in Him. Remember, these difficulties in your life are only a relatively short stop in your eternal existence. Your existence may be miserable now, but Joy comes in the morning.
O LORD, You brought my soul up from the grave; You have kept me alive, that I should not go down to the (eternal) pit.
Sing praise to the LORD, You saints of His, And give thanks at the remembrance of His holy name.
His anger is but for a moment, but His favor is for life;
Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning. Psalm 30:3-5
KP
I’m sorry you are feeling that way. That’s so heavy. I’m glad you reached out. I’m saying a prayer for you!
Are you involved in a church at all? Most churches are good about providing counsel and support if you reach out. Most have connection cards you can fill out or you could even just email the pastor or someone on staff directly. They can probably help or point you in the right direction for the help you need.
Praying the Lord would bring the right people into your life to encourage and support you. You are not alone. 
I will be praying for you stay strong
@hayley46 It’s good that you are here to receive the healing balm of sharing, caring, and burden baring with your brothers and sisters here. These are normal feelings through your walk as I’ve looked at it in mine as well. Giving on empty, putting yourself aside for everyone else, receive nothing in return. Just give till you’re empty. Same thing, and what matters any more. God doesn’t leave us but we do have human heartache that easily can be more than one can bare. It’s hard being alone, and sometimes more poignant when you are alone with someone that should hold more of a connection.
Dear Jesus please help this sister to heal her tattered heart and mind after a long struggle she needs your healing arms of comfort, words of wisdom, and guidance to make it through. Please let her find refuge in the shadow of your wings and the support of family here. Sooth, renew, and revive her that she not only exists but thrives and snuggles in with a church family that tends the coals of hear heat and soul, revealing to her what family is like, modeling a good Christian walk, helping her to find more support that she will be whole again. Please lift her up so that she might have clarity and healing for the rest of her journey on the path you have for her. Let her family be saved if they aren’t already. Please also bless all our brothers and sisters here that pray with us and for each other. Thank you Jesus in your name only, Amen. I feel your pain sister, unfortunately this is the usual way people grow. Talk to Jesus more, search your heart for house cleaning in alignment with the bible. I hope you find overwhelming support that heals your heart and mind more than you ever expected and that grows and lasts. I know from reading about this state of pain that it’s an excellent remedy to volunteer helping others. It’s supposed to be very healing when we are in this state. Renewing and you would probably be of great comfort to many since you know pain. Blessings my dear.
That was beautiful! What a blessing you are! your insight is AWSOME with precision.
First, @hayley46, Hello. Welcome to your family. Remember, as Jesus said.
" Peter began to say to him, “See, we have left everything and followed you.” Jesus said, “Truly, I say to you, there is no one who has left house or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or lands, for my sake and for the gospel, who will not receive a hundredfold now in this time, houses and brothers and sisters and mothers and children and lands, with persecutions, and in the age to come eternal life. But many who are first will be last, and the last first.” Mark 10:28–31
We read this story in Luke. Jesus was teaching, and there were so many people there that no one else could get in.
"Then his mother and his brothers came to him, but they could not reach him because of the crowd. And he was told, “Your mother and your brothers are standing outside, desiring to see you.” But he answered them, “My mother and my brothers are those who hear the word of God and do it.” Luke 8:19-21
We are not as good as a local church, but we are your family in Christ, and we are here for you. May I suggest starting small, but start pushing all these negative thoughts out of your head and start pouring in The Word of God. Stop spending so much time worrying and start praying more and spending more time with God. We are told that we should not worry about anything. Jesus gave us the formula for a worry-free life.
"Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. “Therefore, do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” Matthew 6:31-34
May God be with you, now in this time, and always.
Peter