I’ve tried this before, but this time I really need and want Jesus’ salvation. I can’t do this alone. I can’t do it on my own will. Please pray for me to forget the past and leave it behind. Help me truly forgive and pay no attention to the desires my body want from something that God doesn’t approve of. Please pray for His will and guidance for me. I need his reassurance. I can’t go on like this any more. I want to be free from the chains that have been wrapped around my head for so long. Help me to trust the church again. Pray for me to forgive my self and those that have hurt me. Pray for His will, for more understanding, and how He can use me . Pray that I feel that love , joy and freedom people talk about in this new life, because I don’t feel it yet . It’s a lot of isolation and I am praying and reading my bible non stop with sermons. I have no idea what else to do to live and walk in this light. Pray for my patience and strength to carry on because I feel really down sometimes and I take it out on my family and the world around me .
Thank you so much