Hello Crosswalk family. My prayer is to find a new rhythm with God and myself. I feel like I move mindlessly through life. I am not praying or reading my word as I ought to. I don’t spend time with family and friends the way I would like to. I don’t believe I know what I or God wants out of my life. I feel like Im just moving, working, and living on auto pilot. It feels often like Im living outside of myself, almost like watching my life happen on TV. And it bothers me that I don’t really have any intense feelings about it. My life is just…happening. and I know God wants more for me but I don’t know how to get out of the autopilot movie of my life. I am blessed and am grateful but don’t have a zeal and energy for living. I just feel kind of blah about it all and I don’t feel like that is normal. Please pray that I will get into a rhythm with God and have a new excitement and zeal for Him and my life. Thank you!
I know exactly what you mean. Being on autopilot and feeling ‘blah’ are words that I’ve used also. I’m neither happy or sad, just blah. I also think of it as a season in life. You weren’t there before and likely won’t be there later. It has to do with how we’re feeling and I don’t know that our feelings matter too much. It’s what you do and think in spite of your feelings.
Unfortunately, we can’t be in a spiritual high all the time, but we can have faith all the time. Look at Elijah. Look at David. Neither of these men were always full of zeal and energy. And yet, I think we would agree that they were God’s men and never stopped being God’s men.
I wouldn’t worry too much about it. I think it’s more normal than not normal. If it’s not normal, than I’m in the same boat with you. The thing is what you do about it and you can go through the motions of prayer even if you don’t feel like praying. You can pray and search for God, but you can also rest in Jesus. Time will change it for you. Hold fast to what you believe.