Please pray for me and my family. God has been waking me up during these early hours. I sinned over a month ago, I have gone to him about it. But I still feel shameful and embarrassed. I hope he knows that I was wrong and I know I am wrong for doing it. I love him so much. I’ve always talked to him and fell lost. I feel like I lost myself and feel really sad. He has provided for me and my family in so many ways. I thank him for being a wonderful father to me and a great example of how love should be. I thought I never experienced true love in my life but I realize I did find true love. I found the meaning of true love in God. I’ve been talking to him since a child. In the recent months I’ve felt his presence even more so with a situation I’m going through. I pray he knows I’m sorry. I’m sorry I looked elsewhere when he doesn’t want me to change. He thinks I’m fine just the way I am. I’ve gone through some really terrible things because of what people did to me but I should never change. That is not who I am. I’m so sorry. 
Only one sin and that was a month ago.
Please read 1 Joh1:8+9;8 If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word is not in us.
You have told God you are sorry for what ever you did.
Now you have to believe him.
Believe that he has forgiven you and then forgive yourself, you are allowed to forgive your self.
Suggestion, when you are overwhelmed with feelings of guilt about your sin, spend some time thanking God for Jesus who underwent a truely horrendous experience to obtain forgiveness for you.
STOP IT
You are calling Jesus a liar. He said when you repent your sins are forgiven. End of the matter
You are being tormented by demons while Jesus has set you free.
Please Jehovah Elohim Ozer Li (Psalms 54:4 GOD My Helper ) bless this child of Yours with The Holy Spirits guidance to believe He is free and to educate him to fight back to slap down the demons when they come to torment him.
I humbly request this in the name of the greatest freedom fighter of all, Jesus Christ. Amen
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable about your regrets and sorrows. God has great love and compassion for you, and for all of us with a broken, contrite and repentant spirit. He knows you are sorry, and He has forgiven you completely. 
“As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us. As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him. For He knows our frame; He is mindful that we are dust.” Psalm 103:12-14
Sometimes when I am haunted by past sins that I am ashamed or embarrassed about, I picture myself hugging Jesus’ cross with Him crucified on it, His blood pouring over me and covering my sin. This is our only hope of being right before Him, but what a perfect hope it is! “Bless the Lord, O my soul!” -Psalm 103:22
Praise God that He has shown You how He does not want you to change who He made you to be. You are fearfully and wonderfully made by Him!
Dear Lord Jesus, we lift up this precious child of God to You, asking that you give them peace, comfort, and the reassurance that You remember their sins no more, and that they are loved the way they are. Please lift this burden of shame and guilt, and restore to them the joy of their salvation. Thank You for loving us and dying for us. We love You so much. In Your awesome and holy name we pray, Amen.