Lord, give me strength to let go of the relationship I was in, you know several minutes ago in a moment of weakness I tried calling her, and hung up before she could answer, Lord you know how toxic the relationship was and You have been guiding me to clarity, but You also know I am weak and if I hear her voice or see her I will break and go back to being consumed body and mind by my misguided love for this woman who continues to tempt me back into iniquity, I just want to be able to move on and steel my heart against this person. You know I forgave countless transgressions, am I to respond to her latest apology? when we both know it is insincere. Lord I love you and place my trust in your guidance, relieve me of this burden I don’t think I can handle it much longer alone.
in Jesus name I pray, Amen.
Remember Joseph? He was working for Potiphar as head of the household and Potiphar’s wife wanted Joseph. He avoided her as much as he could until the day she planned to have all the other servants off somewhere. When she came at Joseph, he fled the scene and he was later arrested and imprisoned because she lied to her husband. She said that Joseph came after her.
The Bible text doesn’t say, but think about it. Here was an attractive woman flaunting herself on Joseph and you don’t think he was tempted? I think he was. He was able to resist because God was more important to him and it would be a terrible thing to do to his master. He resisted the temptation by making up his mind that he wouldn’t be lured by her schemes.
I really feel his pain, it’s worse that she was my first love, but yes God is seeing me through and saving me from worse pain in the long run.
I’m sorry for the pain and I understand the pain. I have had such pain in my past. We can’t go by our feelings in determining the right thing to do. Even when the feelings are overwhelming, they can’t be what leads us. I hope you’re praying about it and I think you are. Ask God to comfort your feelings and to keep you true to Him. Ask Him to be your everything, your Rock, your Refuge, your soul’s master and to keep you from falling. It’s obvious to me that this isn’t the right time to hook up with her and you will feel shame and failure if you do. Live today in the Lord and one day at a time. The pain you feel will not last forever. It will pass by the grace of our Lord.