Save me, uplift my grief

I need prayer for strength, mentally, emotionally and physically. After knowing my current spouse for 24 years and 22 years of marriage. I have come to discover by accident, he has been lieing about himself. He describes himself as a Bi-sexual. He’s been on pornography sites and has, or is involved with 3 male sexual relationships in our home , in our bed, that I know of currently. This was his activity before our marriage and has been at least for the last 4 or more years to my knowledge. I’m devestated, I even attempted suicide on April 25th of this year. The day my life changed forever. Since then, he has continued his behavior and in fact has offered our home to 2 of them to move in. I’m being held responsible for all the debt as I am the primary account holder on all credit cards, utilities, phone, health insurance and such. I am older than he and had better credit. So things aren’t going so well for me. The attempt on my life has caused a heart condition for me. I have multiple health issues already so this just compounded things. I’m not doing well emotionally at all. Can’t understand this, or him. I don’t want to go through this heartache anymore. I have made a promise I won’t make any attempts on my life, however I really don’t want to wake to another day of this. I am going to be 67 years old very soon, our wedding anniversary is on the 4th of July and it’s crushing me.

I’m deeply sorry for the pain and betrayal you’re going through. No one deserves to be treated this way—your sorrow is real, and God sees every tear. You’ve carried more than your share, and I want to remind you gently: this is not your fault. What your husband has done is a serious sin, and your suffering is not a reflection of your worth. God still loves you, He has not abandoned you, and He is close to the brokenhearted. Please don’t give up—your life matters, and your story isn’t over.

You don’t need to carry this burden alone. Please seek safety, peace, and truth. You are not called to live under ongoing deception, emotional abuse, and spiritual defilement. Begin asking the Lord what steps to take, and lean on people you trust—pastors, counselors, friends, your church. You’re not too old to begin again. God promises to restore the years the locusts have eaten (Joel 2:25). Even in this late hour, He can bring beauty out of ashes and peace where there’s been torment.

Please turn to prayer. I urge you: hold onto your rosary, pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet, and meditate on God’s Word every day. Start with Psalm 34 and Psalm 91. Here are resources to guide you:

  1. Read the Novena
  2. Read the Divine Mercy, using the Rosary: https://www.thedivinemercy.org/message/devotions/pray-the-chaplet
  3. Read the Scriptures, especially Psalms
  4. Take guidance from the Lord and don’t fall into despair and don’t go after vain things @062025
    I’m praying for you. May Jesus give you strength, healing, and wisdom. Peace be with you.
    – Sam

I have prayed for you.
May God grant you wisdom and inner strength.
Praying for your physical restoration.
I acknowledge the evil that has been done against you.
Your life is so valuable to God. He loves you with tenderness and absolute purity.
I cannot give advice, that is not my place. But I say that when those you have loved do evil and your heart is broken God is living that pain with you.
I pray you can be quickly released from this situation and begin to heal. I cannot guess how God will act to destroy the evil that has come to light. But I know he will.
I found Psalm 62 of great help and comfort. I have read and meditated on it many times.