Everyday just about everyday of my life since I was 11 yrs old after my mom was murdered my life has been sad depression and sever anxiety and thoughts of ending my life. I know it wrong to take your own life I’m trying so hard not to do it but I don’t have no one I have been diagnosed with agoraphobia generalized anxiety disorder major depressive schizoaffective depressive type and PTSD I’m on medication but it’s not helping I live by myself I don’t have any income no food my bills are coming up I can’t go outside by myself without having panic attacks sweating and crying spells I can’t be around people I fear being out alone no body comes to check on me I’m thinking of taking all my medications at once I’m sorry to whoever reads this I just need help I’m all alone please pray for me to have faith in God Thank you very much
I’m so very sorry to read of your thoughts and feelings though I too think of suicide every day, go to sleep thinking it and wake up the same. I pray for god to take me home and run through the list of people I need to forgive after betrayal. It’s so difficult to say the least. I’m not surprised you pig pharma pills don’t work for either. I tried them years ago and quit shortly as they do not work. For starters get on therapy doses of vitamin d3 with k-50-60 thousand units a day. Liquid drops is best I’ve found. Checkout dr Eric berg and mark the man online. I get blood tests and use vitamins to deal with issues. Dr Eric berg is the best I’ve found. Secondly, read about regular people overcoming insurmountable challenges and there are many. Corrie ten boom, Richard warmbrant-torchered for Christ, delefe Christian testimonials of all kinds about overcoming with Jesus. There’s other Christian testimonial folks as well. Course, read your bible. I love the Christian apologetics and science genre on utube. Love Dave hunt, Jacob prasch is the best, dr Walter Martin, Ken ham!!! be cautious to be biblically based and factual as we are in the age of deceit, dr McMurtry is AWSOME!!! Why I believe the earth is young!! You are under spiritual attack. Take that power back. Fear not! This world wants to corrode and kill us all now more than ever. Put on the full armour of God daily. Pray ceaselessly. When fiery darts come in lift your head to Jesus. I’m alone too I know it’s so hard to return to hopefulness with no sounding board. Start reading online about your issues, journal to purge. Some toughening up is required of all of us eh. Get real with yourself, if other folks can do it why can’t you. There’s a lot of truth to mind over matter and building the mental muscles to overcome. I’ve lived on the brink too it’s a choice internally to rebuff the demons all around. Read screw tape letters -cs Luis, though it’s in third person it’s very illuminating. Being a Christian puts you in the war and resistance. Talk to Jesus, of course. The devil doesn’t want you to go outside, be moved to your core, and thrive in Gods creation as you would most likely be a powerhouse to contend with considering what you have already endured. You are being subverted by the enemy. And something else I’ve remembered recently through watching delefe Christian testimonies, bring it to the foot of the cross for Jesus to take care of. Give it back, give the wheel of your life to Jesus, and always test the spirit when you get an idea for something. The Holly spirit only points to the truth- Jesus. Is your idea/thought biblical? Otherwise it’s the enemy working on you. And we have the power through the blood of Jesus and his name to overcome. Remember Job and so many were used for Jesus. I asked for forgiveness lately as I know my suffering shows but we are supposed to be Jesus billboard for the fruit of faith. Confess all your sins to Jesus and be cleansed to start fresh again. Blessings and we will meet in heaven one day.