Everyday just about everyday of my life since I was 11 yrs old after my mom was murdered my life has been sad depression and sever anxiety and thoughts of ending my life. I know it wrong to take your own life I’m trying so hard not to do it but I don’t have no one I have been diagnosed with agoraphobia generalized anxiety disorder major depressive schizoaffective depressive type and PTSD I’m on medication but it’s not helping I live by myself I don’t have any income no food my bills are coming up I can’t go outside by myself without having panic attacks sweating and crying spells I can’t be around people I fear being out alone no body comes to check on me I’m thinking of taking all my medications at once I’m sorry to whoever reads this I just need help I’m all alone please pray for me to have faith in God Thank you very much
@Ckh1976 Sending up a prayer for you right now! The Lord is with you, even in the darkest moments. Praying for hope, strength, and the practical help you need.
And PLEASE reach out to the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline here to get help: 988 Lifeline - If you need emotional support, reach out to the national mental health hotline: 988.
Here is another prayer that I pray can help you:
A Prayer for Fighting Suicidal Thoughts
I know you feel alone, but God has a plan. 
Thank you I’m trying to stay strong and in faith
Hello dear, im so very sorry to hear about your Mother. The pain you are carrying around is truly sad. I believe your Mother is looking down at you and is with you in spirit. Please call your nearest church and speak with a pastor or preacher I believe that will be a start. We lost our daughter to breast cancer 2 years ago . She was 43 years old. It is very painful. I ask you please dont take your life!!! God did not put you here to do this. God has a plan for each of us. Are you saved? Start with the church get saved and ask Jesus Christ to come into your life. Take this one day at a time. Do you have a Bible? The church will guide you honey. There are many services they can provide you with. Please give this a try. You must stay strong you must draw your strength from God. Which is where the church comes in. You must keep in touch there are many people who love and care for you on this site. God be with you at all times and keep you in HIS hands. God bless you dear. Heavenly Father I pray right now at this moment that you touch this person who needs you in there life. There is so much that you provide for each of us. Please send this person a much needed message that there is help for them. Please trust in our Lord as He will provide. In Jesus very precious name I lift up this prayer.
Amen
I’m so sorry you are in so much pain. My heart breaks reading what you have been going through for so long. Please know you are not alone (even though it feels like you are) and your life is precious to God. “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit” (Psalm 34:18). He sees you, He knows every tear you’ve cried, and He loves you more than words can say.
I’ve prayed for you today, asking God to fill you with His peace, to keep you safe, to give you hope, and to send real help into your life right now. You are important, and your life matters.
You are fighting a hard battle, but God has not left you. Jesus said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you” (Hebrews 13:5). Even in the darkest valley, He walks with you. Please keep holding on. You are loved, and you are not alone.
Thank you I will keep praying
I’m praying for you right now. God sees your pain and holds you close (Psalm 34:18). Please keep reaching out! Your life is precious and you are deeply loved. 
Read your Bible, have faith there is a lesson to learn through this dark time, reflect. Take that first step by just opening the door and it’s ok you don’t go out. Progress next day or next week sitting in chair in doorway, take in the beauty GOD made. Remember he has a plan for you, he loves you, he made you special there is nothing to fear it’s a feeling that comes from a thought, change that thought just a little each day. The Lord made the world for you and I to enjoy!